Monday, May 28, 2007
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
my so called life
talan is sick with pneumonia.
hayden is sick with most likely an ear infection that is causing junk to pour out of his eye again, and vomit to come out of his mouth. he also is still congested and coughing like a smoker from the cold he got 2 weeks ago.
dave is sick with a cold that he has had for almost 2 weeks.
i'm not sick. but sometimes feel like i have somehow picked up allergies which i've never had before.
i will have been to the dr./hospital every day this week with the exception of today. but only because i'm refusing to take hayden in today.
we came home from the hospital yesterday to find 3 bees flying through the house. jess....aren't you glad you aren't here?
i bought my flowers a week and a half ago and i still haven't gotten around to planting most of them.
i cut the grass on mother's day which took me forever because it was so long. it was a good workout though. but it gave me some pretty big calluses.
the grass hasn't been cut since, and because dave is still sick, i'll probably be doing it again soon. but not today or tomorrow since it's going to be almost 90.
hayden just came down and said "i feel much better"
but talan is upstairs crying.
hayden is sick with most likely an ear infection that is causing junk to pour out of his eye again, and vomit to come out of his mouth. he also is still congested and coughing like a smoker from the cold he got 2 weeks ago.
dave is sick with a cold that he has had for almost 2 weeks.
i'm not sick. but sometimes feel like i have somehow picked up allergies which i've never had before.
i will have been to the dr./hospital every day this week with the exception of today. but only because i'm refusing to take hayden in today.
we came home from the hospital yesterday to find 3 bees flying through the house. jess....aren't you glad you aren't here?
i bought my flowers a week and a half ago and i still haven't gotten around to planting most of them.
i cut the grass on mother's day which took me forever because it was so long. it was a good workout though. but it gave me some pretty big calluses.
the grass hasn't been cut since, and because dave is still sick, i'll probably be doing it again soon. but not today or tomorrow since it's going to be almost 90.
hayden just came down and said "i feel much better"
but talan is upstairs crying.
Friday, May 11, 2007
no, i am not a robot
tomorrow morning at about 4am, my little sister will be headed to the airport. she'll be boarding a plane that will take her to miami. she will then board another plane that will take her to haiti where she will be living for the next 4-6 months. i just left her house after saying my goodbyes. i don't like crying. i don't like people knowing that i cry. i'm tough. i put off talking about this day or even thinking about this day until this day came. just so that i didn't cry every time i thought about it. so now you all know. the secret is out. i am crying. and will be crying while i write this entire blog. and then some.
i never got along with jessica. we just didn't. we are very different people and for whatever reason, growing up i did not appreciate those differences. we fought all the time. it was a good thing that we were never in high school at the same time as each other. my older sister looked out for me when i got to high school. let me hang with her and her friends. she was a good and positive influence on me. if jessica had been in high school with me, i highly doubt i would have been as gracious and kind with her as jenn had been with me. i surely wasn't a positive influence on her. even after i got married and was "grown" i wasn't close to her. i still couldn't look past all of our differences. to be honest, i have no idea why i even disliked her so much. why it was so hard to get along with her. because she is probably someone that EVERYONE would get along with and love.
somewhere i started to appreciate her. to see what a wonderful person she was. i saw what everyone else had seen all along. i was just too close to see it. too selfish to see. i can now say that jessica is one of my best friends.
we still are very different people. i love confrontation. she hates it. so much so that she almost pukes when she's around or involved in it. that makes me laugh at her. she's a giving person to everyone. i find myself to be a giving person, but mostly to those that i decide are worthy. she is selfless. i am selfish most of the time. she is loving and open and emotional. she lays it all out there. she is vulnerable.
she has been involved in the boys life from day 1. there almost every day of it. she's seen every first he has had. she has loved him almost as much as i love him.
so now that i have thing 2 it kills me to see her head off when he is only a month old. to know that when she returns he will be a totally different thing. that he will have had so many firsts without his aunt there.
when we are bored and have nothing to do, we call jessica. she comes over and just sits on the couch and watches tv and falls asleep and plays games and just does nothing but sit around with her loser sister. i'm not going to know what to do and who to call next weekend (i have plans this weekend, otherwise it'd be tomorrow).
see. i'm selfish. she is leaving for haiti to help people that desperately need it. she is going to a place with no real showers, no tv, no music, no good food, no real beds, no stores or any other conveniences that we have. she's doing it because that's who she is. that is why we all love her so much.
so i'll sit here and cry over her not being here for me and my kids while i take my hot showers and fatten up on my fattening food and go to the dr when i get sick with a cold. she'll be taking care of hundreds of people that have no dr. available to them.
jessica. you are not letting me down. you are not letting anyone down. you are doing what you have been called to do. you are doing what i could not and probably would not ever do. i know it's not easy for you. i know you have the same emotions i have right now. but we'll be here waiting for you. we'll be posting pictures and emailing and talking about you daily. you haven't let anyone down. you are what is still right in this world. we can't wait for your return. but while you're away, enjoy every minute of it. you have a heart for those people. love them. help them. be there for them the way you have been there for us. we'll be missing you, praying for you, waiting for you. we love you.
i love you.
i never got along with jessica. we just didn't. we are very different people and for whatever reason, growing up i did not appreciate those differences. we fought all the time. it was a good thing that we were never in high school at the same time as each other. my older sister looked out for me when i got to high school. let me hang with her and her friends. she was a good and positive influence on me. if jessica had been in high school with me, i highly doubt i would have been as gracious and kind with her as jenn had been with me. i surely wasn't a positive influence on her. even after i got married and was "grown" i wasn't close to her. i still couldn't look past all of our differences. to be honest, i have no idea why i even disliked her so much. why it was so hard to get along with her. because she is probably someone that EVERYONE would get along with and love.
somewhere i started to appreciate her. to see what a wonderful person she was. i saw what everyone else had seen all along. i was just too close to see it. too selfish to see. i can now say that jessica is one of my best friends.
we still are very different people. i love confrontation. she hates it. so much so that she almost pukes when she's around or involved in it. that makes me laugh at her. she's a giving person to everyone. i find myself to be a giving person, but mostly to those that i decide are worthy. she is selfless. i am selfish most of the time. she is loving and open and emotional. she lays it all out there. she is vulnerable.
she has been involved in the boys life from day 1. there almost every day of it. she's seen every first he has had. she has loved him almost as much as i love him.
so now that i have thing 2 it kills me to see her head off when he is only a month old. to know that when she returns he will be a totally different thing. that he will have had so many firsts without his aunt there.
when we are bored and have nothing to do, we call jessica. she comes over and just sits on the couch and watches tv and falls asleep and plays games and just does nothing but sit around with her loser sister. i'm not going to know what to do and who to call next weekend (i have plans this weekend, otherwise it'd be tomorrow).
see. i'm selfish. she is leaving for haiti to help people that desperately need it. she is going to a place with no real showers, no tv, no music, no good food, no real beds, no stores or any other conveniences that we have. she's doing it because that's who she is. that is why we all love her so much.
so i'll sit here and cry over her not being here for me and my kids while i take my hot showers and fatten up on my fattening food and go to the dr when i get sick with a cold. she'll be taking care of hundreds of people that have no dr. available to them.
jessica. you are not letting me down. you are not letting anyone down. you are doing what you have been called to do. you are doing what i could not and probably would not ever do. i know it's not easy for you. i know you have the same emotions i have right now. but we'll be here waiting for you. we'll be posting pictures and emailing and talking about you daily. you haven't let anyone down. you are what is still right in this world. we can't wait for your return. but while you're away, enjoy every minute of it. you have a heart for those people. love them. help them. be there for them the way you have been there for us. we'll be missing you, praying for you, waiting for you. we love you.
i love you.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
life as the mother of two
adjustment to life as 4 has been going rather smoothly over here. nothing too major. hayden, talan and myself manage to get out the door every morning by 8:05am to head to school. and i've always been back to pick hayden up by 11am. although one day i woke up from my nap at 10:44am. just a minute before i usually head out the door. good thing talan was still sleeping in his car seat. i just picked him up, snapped the seat in the car and we were off. he has been sleeping through the nite pretty well too. some nites are rougher than others. but for about 4 nites in a row now he's slept from about 11:30pm until anywhere from 5:30-7:30am. i still feel like i'm losing tons of sleep, but it's not that horrible.
last nite i fed talan his bottle and put him down a little after 11:30. i finished watching my show and then headed to bed around midnite. i suddenly woke from my sleep around 2:30am not from a screaming one month old but a 4 year old yelling "mom. mommy. mommy." i ran in and he told me to turn on the light. i did and he told me that he puked. he got a little panicked and kept saying "but i can't lay down. there is puke on my covers." dave picked him up and carried him to the bathroom in case he had gotten it on himself. but he was panicked and wouldn't listen to our explanation. he just wanted to get changed in his room, not the bathroom. we realized he had very thoughtfully only puked on his sheet. so we took him back to his room and i changed him while dave changed the sheets. 4 years and this was the first time we had to do anything like this. not too bad. we were easily able to put him back to bed and i believe he fell asleep relatively quickly after that.
5:30am i wake up to the one month old screaming to eat. i feed him, i change him, i rock him, i lay him back in bed. he cried for a little bit but has realized that at that 6am in our house, if you're fed, and changed we're not getting up for you. so he fell back to sleep.
7:30am i wake up to dave getting out of bed for work and hayden coming into my bed talking my ear off and telling me he's not sick anymore because the cough he had yesterday is all gone (it isn't). i send him off to watch a show while i lay in bed for another 1/2 or so before i get up to change and feed him and then the one month old starts screaming to be fed and changed as well.
so now it's just about 12:30pm and they have both been fed and changed but i haven't. talan should be waking up soon and screaming to eat once again and hayden will be headed for his nap in a half hour. maybe i'll get another 2 hour sleep break if i'm lucky.
we're still working on the photo situation. dave is planning on doing all he can to get the camera working so it downloads the photos onto our home computer. then i PROMISE i'll be posting much more regularly with lots of pictures. and again i say, i hate computers.
last nite i fed talan his bottle and put him down a little after 11:30. i finished watching my show and then headed to bed around midnite. i suddenly woke from my sleep around 2:30am not from a screaming one month old but a 4 year old yelling "mom. mommy. mommy." i ran in and he told me to turn on the light. i did and he told me that he puked. he got a little panicked and kept saying "but i can't lay down. there is puke on my covers." dave picked him up and carried him to the bathroom in case he had gotten it on himself. but he was panicked and wouldn't listen to our explanation. he just wanted to get changed in his room, not the bathroom. we realized he had very thoughtfully only puked on his sheet. so we took him back to his room and i changed him while dave changed the sheets. 4 years and this was the first time we had to do anything like this. not too bad. we were easily able to put him back to bed and i believe he fell asleep relatively quickly after that.
5:30am i wake up to the one month old screaming to eat. i feed him, i change him, i rock him, i lay him back in bed. he cried for a little bit but has realized that at that 6am in our house, if you're fed, and changed we're not getting up for you. so he fell back to sleep.
7:30am i wake up to dave getting out of bed for work and hayden coming into my bed talking my ear off and telling me he's not sick anymore because the cough he had yesterday is all gone (it isn't). i send him off to watch a show while i lay in bed for another 1/2 or so before i get up to change and feed him and then the one month old starts screaming to be fed and changed as well.
so now it's just about 12:30pm and they have both been fed and changed but i haven't. talan should be waking up soon and screaming to eat once again and hayden will be headed for his nap in a half hour. maybe i'll get another 2 hour sleep break if i'm lucky.
we're still working on the photo situation. dave is planning on doing all he can to get the camera working so it downloads the photos onto our home computer. then i PROMISE i'll be posting much more regularly with lots of pictures. and again i say, i hate computers.
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
the year of the illness and injury
our health insurance has a deductible that we must meet before they pay for anything. and it's a big deductible. $4000 to be exact. we actually only need to pay half of that (that would be $2000...just wanted to show off my super math skills) while the husband's company pays the other $2000. today in the mail i received the explanation of benefits from the insurance company for my labor and delivery. the total cost was almost $8000. of course, there were discounts because we were "in network" and all of that other crap. so that got the total down to $5000 something. my "room and board accommodations" totaled $2900. not worth it, let me tell you. at that price, you would think i stayed in a 5 star hotel. either that, or i stayed in a dump for a month. but no. i stayed in an uncomfortable hospital with sheets that aren't even real and food that i don't think was real either. if i wanted my tv turned on i had to pay $6 a day and i also had to pay to use the phone. no 5 star hotel. and i certainly wasn't there for a month. try a little over 24 hours. and the people coming in and out of my room at all hours of the nite were not coming in to fluff my pillow or leave me a mint, they were there to poke and prod at me and thing 2. and they charged me for that too.
anyway. because of that steep bill, we have now met our deductible. i mean, we haven't paid it yet, but i guess they have faith that we will actually pay it. so from now on, for the rest of this year, we are able to get as sick and as hurt as we want and it's totally covered. this may be the only year that this happens, so i plan on taking full advantage of it. i told the boy tonite at dinner that if he planned on getting really sick or breaking any bones, 2007 is the year to do it. he said "yeah! ok!" and gave a high five to the husband. the husband has been dealing with a messed up hand, foot and probably some other things for at least a year now...probably well over. so he plans on finally heading in for some x-rays and possibly some surgeries to correct these old football injuries. thing 2 has to go to the dr. every other month of course and has as whole mess of shots he needs to get. speaking of, the boy is able to get his kindergarten shots now if we want to....so i guess we will get them this year too. me? i'm not quite sure what i'm planning on, but i'll come up with something. i mean, it's only may. and i have said that 2007 is going to be the year of the gun for me. ahhhh, the possibilities are endless.
anyway. because of that steep bill, we have now met our deductible. i mean, we haven't paid it yet, but i guess they have faith that we will actually pay it. so from now on, for the rest of this year, we are able to get as sick and as hurt as we want and it's totally covered. this may be the only year that this happens, so i plan on taking full advantage of it. i told the boy tonite at dinner that if he planned on getting really sick or breaking any bones, 2007 is the year to do it. he said "yeah! ok!" and gave a high five to the husband. the husband has been dealing with a messed up hand, foot and probably some other things for at least a year now...probably well over. so he plans on finally heading in for some x-rays and possibly some surgeries to correct these old football injuries. thing 2 has to go to the dr. every other month of course and has as whole mess of shots he needs to get. speaking of, the boy is able to get his kindergarten shots now if we want to....so i guess we will get them this year too. me? i'm not quite sure what i'm planning on, but i'll come up with something. i mean, it's only may. and i have said that 2007 is going to be the year of the gun for me. ahhhh, the possibilities are endless.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
sure am glad i didn't actually unpack my bags
so i have to apologize to talan. on easter sunday, april 8th, i wrote a complaint blog about how this kid was never going to come and how frustrated i was. i have since realized he was being quite considerate and only allowing for all of my plans to happen. i was able to eat a real easter dinner and see blades of glory as planned. in fact, we have to give some credit to will ferrell and jon heder and the rest of the cast as it is possible the laughter helped put me into labor.
we went to a 5:15 show and then headed back to my mom and dad's house for round 2 of easter dessert. awhile later we headed home. hayden watched a show and i wrote a blog complaining about how nothing was happening. when the show was over, dave headed off to put hayden to bed. he called his parents to wish them a happy easter and explained my situation about how i would have to be induced if i didn't go into labor by tuesday. i was watching the amazing race on tivo. it was just before 10pm when i started to feel a contraction, one with a little bit of pain, nothing major. but it was one of the first real contractions i'd had since saturday morning. all of a sudden i felt a pop and i just yelled out "OUCH." dave was in the other room and ignored me thinking the cat had just bitten me. i was sitting there thinking my water had broken and was kind of waiting for the flood to happen. dave realized it wasn't the cat and i made my way to the bathroom. there seemed to be some fluid but nothing major. so then i just said "what am i supposed to do?" it didn't really seem like my water broke and i wasn't really feeling contractions. i decided i should call my mom to basically give her a heads up that she might need to get over to our place soon. i called and said "i think something might have happened" to which mom replied in a panicked voice "what happened?! WHAT HAPPENED?!" she yelled at me to call the dr. and call her right back. i put a call into the answering service and as i was waiting for the dr. to call me back i started to feel some contractions. i told dave to call my mom and tell her she should get over to our house. this time realizing, unlike the last time, that i didn't have time to wait around once i felt contractions.
the dr. called me back and when she heard that hayden was born in about 2 hours she said "PLEASE get over here right now." my mom got to the house pretty quickly and we loaded up the car and got in as the contractions were getting worse. dave was busy text messaging the world letting them know we were on the way to the hospital while my pain was getting worse and worse. we got to the hospital and i was rolled through the emergency room with this extra-large security guard yelling out the whole way "she's ready to go. this baby is coming" and EVERYONE in the emergency waiting room was just watching me. at one point, when i didn't have a contraction, i almost just started doing the miss america wave. but then another contraction took over.
so i get up to the triage area and they were waiting for me. the on-call dr. let them all know that i was on my way in and that i needed to be checked right away. i'm guessing that it was a little before 11pm at this point and when they checked me i was a 5. so i look at the intern and say "a 5?! that's ALL?!" and she just says "a 5 is A LOT. most people come in at a 2." they asked me if i had a plan for drugs and i told them to give me anything and everything they could. they said they would call the anesthesiologist for an epidural. they also told me that my water had not, in fact, broken. still not sure what that "pop" was other than a sign from god to GET OUT NOW.
not long after being checked in triage they rolled me down to my delivery room and told me if i ever started feeling more pressure or a feeling to push i needed to tell them right away so they could check me again. not long after getting to my room i told them i felt like i might need to push soon. so they check me and i'm suddenly a 7. at this point the anesthesiologist walks in and asks why they waited so long to call him. that being a 7 he couldn't guarantee that it would work. great. here we go again. they explained to him that i just got there and i was only a 5. you can say the drug dr. wasn't mr. personality but let me tell you, he sells something i want. lucky for me, he is one of the best and was able to get the epidural in just in time and it did work. and it worked quickly. i can't even believe the difference. and honestly, anyone who decides to do this labor thing with no drugs on purpose is straight up retarded. i can speak from personal experience doing it both ways now. jessica, justin and my mom showed up and were in the delivery room with me and dave while we waited out my dilation process (later i was told that we were the funnest patients that our nurse had ever had.) so we're sitting there and justin decided to break my water. he was talking about reece's peanut butter eggs of all things and i let out a laugh and then said "oh crap. my water just broke." basically, you can say that laughter is what brought talan into this world. not a bad way to start out. so i call the nurse in and the family leaves. they check me and say, "you're plus 2, complete. you can push anytime you want." because of the sweet sweet drugs, the pushing process wasn't as quick as it was with hayden (2 pushes) but it was a lot more comfortable. i maybe pushed for about 20 minutes, maybe.
our second son, talan cash skiver, entered this world at 12:22am on monday, april 9th (only 23 minutes after his due date) weighing in at 7 pounds 3 ounces and 21 1/4 inches long. right away we all thought he looked so different from hayden. hayden came out looking identical to me when i was born. we couldn't really put a finger on who talan looked like, but he looked different. maybe it was the newness of him, but given some time we have actually seen quite a bit of hayden in him now.
jessica, justin and mom stayed for awhile with us before heading home for the evening, around 2am. dave and i got as much sleep as we could possibly get in a hospital room. but talan has so far been a wonderful, relaxed, easy going baby. he has rarely cried and when he does, it's a couple of squawks. we aren't banking on him staying this way as we know that hayden was a relatively good baby and then the colic struck. but for now, we are enjoying it. he has now let us sleep through 2 evenings and we're hoping our first nite at home will go as smoothly as the 2 nites in the hospital went.
big brother hayden came to the hospital to visit us yesterday. he knew that mommy was in the hospital but wasn't told that i had the baby. when he got there my dad was holding talan and jenn was holding rainah. we pointed to talan and said "do you know who this is?" and he said "rainah!" and we pointed over to rainah and said, "no, that's rainah, who's this?!" he looked quite confused. the babies in this family are just multiplying. we introduced him to talan and he just said "yes! i'm a big brother now!" not long after, he started running around the room being hayden and not really caring what in the world was happening around him. he didn't really want to hold him or do anything like that, but really only because he had better things to do. why in the world would he want to actually sit?! i think it will take some time for him to really grasp that talan is here to stay. but i think he's going to do far better with it than i initially thought he would.
we were released from the hospital this morning, tuesday, april 10th at around 11:30am. i apologize again for not getting information to everyone. i know many of you got an email saying my water had broken (which turned out to be a lie) and we were headed to the hospital but then got no other info after that. we tried for the past 24 hours to get a internet signal in the hospital and it just didn't happen. when we'd actually get one we would lose it before we were able to get the email out. so thanks for the patience. keep checking this blog as well as hayden's for pictures and posts. soon i'll be adding a link to talan's own page as well.
thanks to everyone for all the well wishes and love. can't wait for you all to meet talan cash.
we went to a 5:15 show and then headed back to my mom and dad's house for round 2 of easter dessert. awhile later we headed home. hayden watched a show and i wrote a blog complaining about how nothing was happening. when the show was over, dave headed off to put hayden to bed. he called his parents to wish them a happy easter and explained my situation about how i would have to be induced if i didn't go into labor by tuesday. i was watching the amazing race on tivo. it was just before 10pm when i started to feel a contraction, one with a little bit of pain, nothing major. but it was one of the first real contractions i'd had since saturday morning. all of a sudden i felt a pop and i just yelled out "OUCH." dave was in the other room and ignored me thinking the cat had just bitten me. i was sitting there thinking my water had broken and was kind of waiting for the flood to happen. dave realized it wasn't the cat and i made my way to the bathroom. there seemed to be some fluid but nothing major. so then i just said "what am i supposed to do?" it didn't really seem like my water broke and i wasn't really feeling contractions. i decided i should call my mom to basically give her a heads up that she might need to get over to our place soon. i called and said "i think something might have happened" to which mom replied in a panicked voice "what happened?! WHAT HAPPENED?!" she yelled at me to call the dr. and call her right back. i put a call into the answering service and as i was waiting for the dr. to call me back i started to feel some contractions. i told dave to call my mom and tell her she should get over to our house. this time realizing, unlike the last time, that i didn't have time to wait around once i felt contractions.
the dr. called me back and when she heard that hayden was born in about 2 hours she said "PLEASE get over here right now." my mom got to the house pretty quickly and we loaded up the car and got in as the contractions were getting worse. dave was busy text messaging the world letting them know we were on the way to the hospital while my pain was getting worse and worse. we got to the hospital and i was rolled through the emergency room with this extra-large security guard yelling out the whole way "she's ready to go. this baby is coming" and EVERYONE in the emergency waiting room was just watching me. at one point, when i didn't have a contraction, i almost just started doing the miss america wave. but then another contraction took over.
so i get up to the triage area and they were waiting for me. the on-call dr. let them all know that i was on my way in and that i needed to be checked right away. i'm guessing that it was a little before 11pm at this point and when they checked me i was a 5. so i look at the intern and say "a 5?! that's ALL?!" and she just says "a 5 is A LOT. most people come in at a 2." they asked me if i had a plan for drugs and i told them to give me anything and everything they could. they said they would call the anesthesiologist for an epidural. they also told me that my water had not, in fact, broken. still not sure what that "pop" was other than a sign from god to GET OUT NOW.
not long after being checked in triage they rolled me down to my delivery room and told me if i ever started feeling more pressure or a feeling to push i needed to tell them right away so they could check me again. not long after getting to my room i told them i felt like i might need to push soon. so they check me and i'm suddenly a 7. at this point the anesthesiologist walks in and asks why they waited so long to call him. that being a 7 he couldn't guarantee that it would work. great. here we go again. they explained to him that i just got there and i was only a 5. you can say the drug dr. wasn't mr. personality but let me tell you, he sells something i want. lucky for me, he is one of the best and was able to get the epidural in just in time and it did work. and it worked quickly. i can't even believe the difference. and honestly, anyone who decides to do this labor thing with no drugs on purpose is straight up retarded. i can speak from personal experience doing it both ways now. jessica, justin and my mom showed up and were in the delivery room with me and dave while we waited out my dilation process (later i was told that we were the funnest patients that our nurse had ever had.) so we're sitting there and justin decided to break my water. he was talking about reece's peanut butter eggs of all things and i let out a laugh and then said "oh crap. my water just broke." basically, you can say that laughter is what brought talan into this world. not a bad way to start out. so i call the nurse in and the family leaves. they check me and say, "you're plus 2, complete. you can push anytime you want." because of the sweet sweet drugs, the pushing process wasn't as quick as it was with hayden (2 pushes) but it was a lot more comfortable. i maybe pushed for about 20 minutes, maybe.
our second son, talan cash skiver, entered this world at 12:22am on monday, april 9th (only 23 minutes after his due date) weighing in at 7 pounds 3 ounces and 21 1/4 inches long. right away we all thought he looked so different from hayden. hayden came out looking identical to me when i was born. we couldn't really put a finger on who talan looked like, but he looked different. maybe it was the newness of him, but given some time we have actually seen quite a bit of hayden in him now.
jessica, justin and mom stayed for awhile with us before heading home for the evening, around 2am. dave and i got as much sleep as we could possibly get in a hospital room. but talan has so far been a wonderful, relaxed, easy going baby. he has rarely cried and when he does, it's a couple of squawks. we aren't banking on him staying this way as we know that hayden was a relatively good baby and then the colic struck. but for now, we are enjoying it. he has now let us sleep through 2 evenings and we're hoping our first nite at home will go as smoothly as the 2 nites in the hospital went.
big brother hayden came to the hospital to visit us yesterday. he knew that mommy was in the hospital but wasn't told that i had the baby. when he got there my dad was holding talan and jenn was holding rainah. we pointed to talan and said "do you know who this is?" and he said "rainah!" and we pointed over to rainah and said, "no, that's rainah, who's this?!" he looked quite confused. the babies in this family are just multiplying. we introduced him to talan and he just said "yes! i'm a big brother now!" not long after, he started running around the room being hayden and not really caring what in the world was happening around him. he didn't really want to hold him or do anything like that, but really only because he had better things to do. why in the world would he want to actually sit?! i think it will take some time for him to really grasp that talan is here to stay. but i think he's going to do far better with it than i initially thought he would.
we were released from the hospital this morning, tuesday, april 10th at around 11:30am. i apologize again for not getting information to everyone. i know many of you got an email saying my water had broken (which turned out to be a lie) and we were headed to the hospital but then got no other info after that. we tried for the past 24 hours to get a internet signal in the hospital and it just didn't happen. when we'd actually get one we would lose it before we were able to get the email out. so thanks for the patience. keep checking this blog as well as hayden's for pictures and posts. soon i'll be adding a link to talan's own page as well.
thanks to everyone for all the well wishes and love. can't wait for you all to meet talan cash.
sorry for the delay....
so i'll post the birth story soon, but for now we wanted to get some photos up. my intentions were to post blogs and pictures throughout the process, but who knew that providence hospital doesn't have wifi?! sorry for the hold up.
before drugs. at this point i was about 7 cm dilated:
people that don't get drugs on purpose are just retarded. i know for a fact, i've now done it both ways (and NOT on purpose)
introducing......talan cash skiver 4/9/07 12:22am 7lbs 3oz 21 1/4 inches
when talan was first born we were all surprised by how much he did NOT look like hayden (and me) but this picture is proving us wrong.
mommy and her boys
grandpa kellogg and the grandkids
taken this morning shortly before heading home
before drugs. at this point i was about 7 cm dilated:
people that don't get drugs on purpose are just retarded. i know for a fact, i've now done it both ways (and NOT on purpose)
introducing......talan cash skiver 4/9/07 12:22am 7lbs 3oz 21 1/4 inches
when talan was first born we were all surprised by how much he did NOT look like hayden (and me) but this picture is proving us wrong.
mommy and her boys
grandpa kellogg and the grandkids
taken this morning shortly before heading home
Sunday, April 8, 2007
i'm unpacking
this has gotten quite ridiculous. after having some pretty consistent contractions friday nite and even some on saturday morning, there was been nothing. some typical contractions that don't hurt and aren't consistent. i've only got about a day left before i go into the dr. and he tells me to pick a date to be induced. not good.
i only want this thing to come out so badly because i DO NOT want to be induced. further explanation tells me that they'll have me come in one evening to give me some pill to soften my cervix and then the next day they start the pitosin. that's just not feasible for someone like me. i have panic attacks. i can't sleep in any bed other than my own. there is no way i'm going to be able to stay in a hospital for 2 or 3 nites. not gonna happen.
it's also quite frustrating after having zero indications that hayden was about to show himself to the world until 2 hours before he did and this one i was sure i'd be having it yesterday....and now, NOTHING.
i'm hoping this kid is just being difficult in the womb and when it pops out it will be the opposite of hayden. i can dream, huh?
i only want this thing to come out so badly because i DO NOT want to be induced. further explanation tells me that they'll have me come in one evening to give me some pill to soften my cervix and then the next day they start the pitosin. that's just not feasible for someone like me. i have panic attacks. i can't sleep in any bed other than my own. there is no way i'm going to be able to stay in a hospital for 2 or 3 nites. not gonna happen.
it's also quite frustrating after having zero indications that hayden was about to show himself to the world until 2 hours before he did and this one i was sure i'd be having it yesterday....and now, NOTHING.
i'm hoping this kid is just being difficult in the womb and when it pops out it will be the opposite of hayden. i can dream, huh?
Saturday, April 7, 2007
my bags are packed
last nite i decided to clean the house and try to get things moving with this baby. i vacuumed and mopped and was even on the floor washing the baseboards. probably a little before 9pm i started having some contractions. but contractions that actually packed a little punch with them. not just the standard stomach tightening contractions. after awhile i decided to start timing them as they had been fairly consistent. they were about 8 minutes apart. at about 12:30 i decided to go to bed. maybe i shouldn't have, cuz i really didn't have many more after about 1am. i woke up this morning and after getting out of the shower i started feeling them again. i'm not sure that they are as consistent right now as they were last nite, but i have been having quite a few and they aren't the nicest feeling things in the world.
it's just such a difference between this and hayden. with hayden, i didn't feel contractions like these until about an hour before he was born and close to the time i started feeling like i wanted to push. so now i'm sitting here wondering....when in the world might this actually happen?! i don't like hospitals so i certainly don't want to get there any earlier than i have to.
many of you will be happy to know that last nite i partially packed a bag. i got all of hayden's easter stuff together so that if i end up in the hospital the family can know right where it all is and he can still have a somewhat normal easter. we even dyed our easter eggs this morning.
so at this point, i'm waiting for dave to take a shower and then we might go walk the mall (livonia mall, so if my water breaks nobody will be around). while we're walking most likely a big topic we will be discussing are names. we're doing better than we were at least. i think we're set on a boys name and we have 3 candidates that we can't decide on for a girl. maybe while walking the mall we'll just start yelling out the names and see what works best.
it's just such a difference between this and hayden. with hayden, i didn't feel contractions like these until about an hour before he was born and close to the time i started feeling like i wanted to push. so now i'm sitting here wondering....when in the world might this actually happen?! i don't like hospitals so i certainly don't want to get there any earlier than i have to.
many of you will be happy to know that last nite i partially packed a bag. i got all of hayden's easter stuff together so that if i end up in the hospital the family can know right where it all is and he can still have a somewhat normal easter. we even dyed our easter eggs this morning.
so at this point, i'm waiting for dave to take a shower and then we might go walk the mall (livonia mall, so if my water breaks nobody will be around). while we're walking most likely a big topic we will be discussing are names. we're doing better than we were at least. i think we're set on a boys name and we have 3 candidates that we can't decide on for a girl. maybe while walking the mall we'll just start yelling out the names and see what works best.
Thursday, April 5, 2007
the deadline has been set
yesterday i went in for another ultrasound to check my fluid levels. dad said i could have done it a whole lot cheaper just going to jiffy lube and i think i agree. the fluid levels are even higher than they were when we went in on march 12th. mom and jessica went with me (mom cried, of course) and the ultrasound tech told them to stand clear of me if and when my water breaks cuz it's just gonna be a mess. here are some more photos of the baby at 39 1/2 weeks.
this is a picture of the baby's face. it is looking right at you. the tech stated once again that this baby has a lot of hair. big surprise.
this is the baby's arm and hand which is up over it's face:
today i went in to see my dr. for another non stress test since they are closed tomorrow. everything once again looked good, but again he had concern over the fluid level. he said that since the fluid levels are going up still he is giving me until my appointment on tuesday to go into labor and then we will have to induce. from there, i will probably be induced somewhere between tuesday and thursday all depending on the schedule. i REALLY don't want to be induced. and as much as i don't want to be in the hospital on easter, right now, i'll take anything other than being induced. he is just concerned that my water breaking at home is not the safest thing with all the extra fluid. and the longer that we wait, the more of a concern it is. so, we know that this baby will be born by a week from today.
dad is making me sit on garbage bags when i'm at their house so i don't ruin the furniture with what he calls my "tsunami." i'm just scared i'll be sitting in church on easter sunday and the flood gates will open. would make for an interesting story though....
this is a picture of the baby's face. it is looking right at you. the tech stated once again that this baby has a lot of hair. big surprise.
this is the baby's arm and hand which is up over it's face:
today i went in to see my dr. for another non stress test since they are closed tomorrow. everything once again looked good, but again he had concern over the fluid level. he said that since the fluid levels are going up still he is giving me until my appointment on tuesday to go into labor and then we will have to induce. from there, i will probably be induced somewhere between tuesday and thursday all depending on the schedule. i REALLY don't want to be induced. and as much as i don't want to be in the hospital on easter, right now, i'll take anything other than being induced. he is just concerned that my water breaking at home is not the safest thing with all the extra fluid. and the longer that we wait, the more of a concern it is. so, we know that this baby will be born by a week from today.
dad is making me sit on garbage bags when i'm at their house so i don't ruin the furniture with what he calls my "tsunami." i'm just scared i'll be sitting in church on easter sunday and the flood gates will open. would make for an interesting story though....
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